By Debra Sapp-Yarwood, Midwest Voices Panelist 2008

I have not read the book yet, I am commenting on Scott McClellan's appearance this morning on the NBC Today Show.

I'll reveal to you that as a Democrat, I for the first time finally could answer "what was the man thinking?" And by "the man," I mean W. Suddenly, I wasn't angry or defensive or outraged, as I was before. I was sad.

I should admit I formerly believed that the Bush administration's spin and deception, which led the American people to support the war in Iraq, was motivated largely by vengeance and only justified by "reasonable" fears of WMD and vague connections to the terrorists of 9/11. I thought the most logical reason that George Bush was pushing this ill-fated, wrong-headed war was some visceral need to avenge the threat Saddam Hussein had issued against his father. I thought the underhanded attacks on opponents, like the Plame-Wilson family were also fueled by vengeance. I thought I was a generous Democrat, in that I dismissed the enrichment of Bush's buddies in the oil industry as merely a nice bonus for his country club pals, not something more nefarious.

This morning, I sat saddened, sobered. It was clear that Bush had a vision that wasn't fueled by vengeance or any other capriciousness. Had he voiced his vision clearly, many would have called it delusional, and they would have been right. And we the people would have stopped him. His vision would have died in the quagmire of endless public debate, and George W. Bush wasn't going to let that happen. Of course it was risky, but brave visionaries take risks and only then may they accomplish what others believe to be delusional.

George W. Bush envisioned, deeply, profoundly, that he was going to be the leader and visionary who would transform the entire middle east, starting in Iraq, using military force.

He believed he was the one to make this transformation, because he had the entree to leaders there -- he could "jawbone" with the Saudi royalty like no one else. He was the one: the neo-con avatar. It fell into place for me this morning as I watched his former press secretary speak with remnants of affection for him.

Now, in the wake of a failed vision, life in the US is difficult. Our economy teeters, our troops are exhausted, W's jawbone buddies mock him. It would make for great Shakespeare.

All of this said, I think McClellan's mission is a noble one. Let's reclaim a sense of honesty in the political process, a trust in Democracy. Yes, some things will die in the quagmire of endless public debate. So be it. Other decisions will be uncomfortable compromises. So be it. As a Democracy, we are noble, but we aren't godlike, and our visions must be tempered by our process and a sense of reality and our mortality. We must accept the beauty in our limitations, which may prevent us from entering another ill-fated war.